I KNOW IT'S NOT CHRISTMAS.

Christmas is as good as gone

2007-04-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

whoa! i havent been here for eons. and eons and eons and eons. well, i hafta say i've been really busy. with.. well, alot of things. and so, i'm sending out my heartfelt gratitude to those who have still been visiting my blog, only with the hope, that i would update it. cheers!

anyways, to those who i havent been in close contact with,
i'm doing quite fine. (: so, dont worry too much for me, that is, if u even do.
i've been bucking up, in terms of studies and in terms of prioritising,

BUT, not in terms of friendship, relationships and obviously blogging.

i wont be here for a while now, but rest assure i'll be back. after my O's. whether you like it or not.

really,.. CHEERS!

THE TRUTH

2006-11-30T21:02:00.000+08:00

heyya people!
whoo! christmas is coming so so so soon, and i'm truly lazy and not inspired to write any poem. ho-hum, anyway, a note for gals out here who get jealous or, are insecure about yourself when it comes to 'keeping' a boyfriend.
i guess it only applies to some gals and only some guys. >.<
i shall just TRY to rhyme it since i'm so bored ahahaha.

THE POEM
guys are trivia
sometimes we say
but when we're attached
we dont feel that way

becoming our everything
and merging as one
we get so concerned
we get nothing done

the first few weeks (or mths)
when the chemicals reacts
our minds get befuddled
we forget the facts

that guys will be guys
they're growing up
when girls walk by
their minds corrupt

when we turn green
their red in the face
we try to forget
and drop the case

a sense of insecurity
seeps into our brains
we get anxious
start folding cranes

our love and care
that's all we can give
yet we are afraid
that you would leave

we end up looking
more in the mirror
are we too flat
or a problem with our rear

take time to dress up
spend more buying clothes
we cry in our sleep
carrying heavy loads

yet something amiss
we never really notice....
something that she didnt realise..

if you're with a man
who looks at your looks alone
forget about him
you'll end up in loan

to only yourself
for you have lost
your time, your care
your love, a cost

so find out now
and find out true
who's the one
who's true to you.

before it drags
quick get detached
get your heart out
no strings attached

but if the guy is genuine
still, dont be too rash
emote ur feelings
dont let things crash

for all the gals
and guys out there
i wish you luck
and a tinge of flair

limshuyi- yo

(: hhaha, ok, that was a very long note, ((:
ahh, i wanna change my blogskin AGAIN.. its just not right... i need BLACK.

to julian: kisses.

THE CROSSING

2006-10-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

THE CROSSING

i'm neither here nor there
in between the living and the dead
one step forth and i'll be dancing on air
one step back and i'll still be threading on thin ice

left with two choices
ironically, the verdict's not mine
fate like a marionette's
whoose puppetier manipulates.

i often wonder to myself
why i have to face the blow-off
they are the seeds that i sow
the residual of my illness

I dont like pity
hate the slightest feel of it impending
its acts as a memento mori
my failures come clear

looking square in the eye
pity befalls me
like the knighting of a duke
just less glamourous.

too bad.....

realization

2006-08-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

ohmygosh, its been just so so so long..
i've come to realise many more things since my absence.

i've realised how big a person's words may seem
and how small it can sum up to be.

i've realised how many beautiful promises a person can make
and how little they can keep.

i've realised how much a person can do for someone else
and how aught they wish their reward to be.

i've realised the grass seems always greener on the other side
and how lonely it may be too.

i've realised how tall a tale may sound
and how pint-size it can turn out.

i've realised how immense a something might seem
and how limited it actually is.

summarizing it: how big a thing may look,
it is actually very small a matter.

2006-07-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

plainly

It might take a while, to really mend
A heart that has been pawed by a sin.
It is so difficult to understand, what somebody is thinking within.

I've learned to hide all the tears that I hold,
No one can see me cos I'm hardly cold.

And it's cos i can give all and sacrifice,
more than girls would give to guys.

That's what makes me ever so gullible,
letting everything else think that I'm feeble.

Letting people step on me and never plead,
only makes them gloat and grow in greed.

I tend to lie, & lie a lot,
but coming to friendship, a liar, I'm not.

I give my guts, my soul, my heart.
My lonesome spirit, my every part.

YAY!?

rockyou

2006-07-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

THREEMONTHS

2006-06-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

THREEMONTHS

your my north, my south,
my east, my west,
my morning call,
my nighttime rest.

Thinking of you
when i am awake.
Dreaming about you
when i sleep.

don't want to lose you,
for I would be alone,
and some days I just can't wait
to hear your voice on the phone.

you do certain things
to make me feel loved,
some days you want to be alone
and my heart is shoved.

I want to be
like your very own safeguard,
the one you can come to
when things get hard

Its the twinkle
in your eye
lethal looks,
I melt and die.

Its the warmness
of your hands
sends a shock
right thru my pants

Its how you always amaze me
You suprise me all day long
with lil actions and lil thoughts
and occasionally, a lil song

its been three months,
and we're still growing strong
cant find a reason to leave,
coz with you, nothing seems wrong.

hahaha, i know its been long since i posted. ohwell, OKAY, i was lazy. i admit it . damnit. alright, today's our THIRD month together. i really cant explain it, the duration is long but it feels short, the understanding is short, but it feels long. i think i must have known you in my past life Julian. hahaha, and please I DONT WANT PRESENTS you asshole. whoops! that was so unintended.

i love you baby.
though i haven't seen you for 2 days,
and your asleep right now.
i'm still alive, and awake for that matter.
hahahs,

LIM SHUYI

2006-05-14T01:31:00.000+08:00

LIFE

Life is so fragile
Just a touch
And all is gone

It gets tough sometimes
But it takes just the mind and the heart
To get pass.

Sometimes you screw it
While sometimes u succeed
It’s unpredictable

It can be a bed of roses
But you step on the thorns,
More then the petals.

It can be a stage,
Where everyone’s wearing a mask
‘gets us thinking, what’s real, what ain’t.

It can be a rollercoaster,
With its ups and downs,
Some just puke.

It can be a tree,
Always growing with fruits and flowers.
Until they wither.

It can be a beehive,
Busy, sweet and a place for newborns.
Its content, lethal.

Questioning the purpose of life
Is BOLD.
The answers so complex
Yet simple.

Life is a process.
For people to be born,
To learn how to love, hate,
To experience, joy, pain.
To be fit; sick, to die.
And just be happy they died.
LIM SHUYI

i'm so sorry, i just feel very LIFELESS. hmm,. i know this poem sounds weird. hahas, YAY! tht's like so ME! hahahas

YOU in L.A.

2006-04-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

YOU in L.A.

I need to see you everyday
To hold you tight and know that you're ok
At times things bother you, yes it may,
And I don’t notice right away

I want to give you everything that I can
I want you to always be my man
And for me to be your girl forever
yes, now that is clever.

As days go by we just get closer,
My head finds comfort on your shoulder,
And through my life you'll always be
A very special part of me.

The one I think of every minute,
Life would be dull without you in it,
yet now we’re miles apart
With you still holding on to my heart.

You left for just barely three days
And I must say I’m really amazed
How much I can really miss you
How much I wish I could see you.

I miss the times we chatted on the phone
I miss the times we ate ice-cream cones
I miss the times we stayed so close
I miss the times we snuggled each other’s nose(s)

There you are, in L.A.
Only coming back this may
While I’m stuck in Singapore
Loving you even more and more.

Each time you call my untouched mobile,
I answer with feelings, zipped within my smile.
I yearn to see you once again, but damn,
I guess I hafta make do with the webcam

No matter what I'll always remember,
The many days we spent together.
I pray that’ll you’ll be safe this trip
And hopefully, not meet with some creep.

THAT WAS A WEIRD ENDING, but hey! I’m serious. If anything happenes to you, I’ll kill you (DOUBLE DEATH)

My Baby

2006-04-19T04:59:00.000+08:00

MY BABY

It was during camp,
When you and I first met.
Never knew our paths would cross,
And me falling in love just like that.

I love everything about you,
Your eyes, your laugh, your smile.
Were you the one to be,
The one who made it all worthwhile?

I was confused back then,
When I loved someone.
But then you came along,
And a new love begun.

We have so much in common,
So much that it turned scary.
But it was really fun,
On the contrary.

Who'd known,
I'd be so crazy over you.
Wells as you can see now,
It's nothing less than true.

You're sometimes in my daydreams,
And I wish they would come true.
And I wish that somehow,
I would be in your daydreams too.

You wrote poems for me,
Wrote me many notes of choice.
But the only thing I’m missing,
Is the sound of your melodious voice!

I don't know what came over me,
To write this poem to you.
But I miss you so much,
And hate it when its adieu.

So tell me you love me,
Cos I sure love you,
Bold as the word may be,
My love for you just grew.

I miss your hugs, your kisses,
And not to mention you.
I really wish I could see you,
I really wish, I do.

Sometimes I get jealous,
When other guys love you too.
But I trust you enough,
To love me only, that’s all I ask of you.

I’m not a good poet,
At words I’m not that good.
All I have to say is,
For you, anything, I would.

Your smile lifts me up,
Your laughter brightens my day.
How wish this would never end,
And would always stay this way,

I played the piano for you,
Even came up with songs.
Just to tell you how I felt,
Where this poor heart belongs.

If I were to write more,
I fear it may never end.
So this is for you, my baby,
My darling, my best friend.

smth i wrote specially for my

darling..

hope you like it baby.

by JULIAN

ILOVEYOUBABY!!!

mummy oh mummy

2006-04-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

MUMMY oh MUMMY

you took away my joy,
my love, my passion.
you treat me like a toy,
just a companion.

i know i'll never be perfect,
i just cant be like you.
So, i won't hide the fact,
that i'll never reach there too.

you say i neglect the family,
who are you to say that.
i love my family whole-heartedly,
more than anyone i've ever met.

you ask me to speak up,
and yet you don't listen.
from me, the max, a "yup",
and soon, you'ld have forgotten.

sure i'm wrong at times,
but please a soul is begging.
"you're forgiven" dont cost no dimes
all i want is your loving.

detachment

2006-04-16T19:08:00.000+08:00

DETACHMENT

Tears fall when you both argue,
tears fall when you both fight.
Tears fall everyday,
tears fall every night.

Tears fall when I hear the news,
tears fall when I get the blues.
I hear that you both might part soon,
and thats when tears start under this moon.

Tears fall when you both stop talking,
tears fall as my head hits my knees.
Tears fall when your faces turn blue,
tears fall because i'm missing you two.

Tears fall when you both break down,
my brothers, they weep as they frown.
My knees go weak and hit the ground,
everything starts spinning all around.

Tears fall when i pretend to be strong,
tears fall when everything goes wrong.
Tears fall when you two don't sleep,
tears fall as i dream and think deep.

Daddy, daddy, stop what your doing,
cool that temper, quit that smoking.
All the times we begged and pleaded,
quit you drinking, you are needed!

Mummy, mummy, take it slow,
just lower your pride and ego,
accept us for who we are
stop going for drives in your car!

We all do love you
and we pray.,

we pray,

we pray,

we'll all be fine.

IF I HAD

2006-04-02T18:39:00.000+08:00

[[IF i had]]

If I had the stars to give,
I'll give them all to you.
I'll arrange them in the sky,
in words, saying "I love you."

If I had the clouds,
at my very own disposal,
I'll place one under your feet,
So that you'll always feel,
like you were walking on air,
because that's the feeling
you always give to me,

And I'll command those very same clouds,
to shower you with adoring, amazing, incredible,
magical, wonderful life-giving love.

If I was given absolutely everything,
I'll give you everything that you could ever want.

If I had mythical, mystical powers of magic,
I'll use them all to make you smile.
I'll use them all, to make you laugh

..so you'd be happy, all the while,
..just like me..

knowing, that I have you,
and the thought that you are mine.

i love you baby.
although its different from what i promised. hahaha, its still something for you la. LOL.
LIMSHUYI<3

[YOU]+[I]=[US]

2006-03-28T22:25:00.000+08:00

[YOU]+[I]=[US]

I finally found you
and put my arms around you
When your smile meet mine
I knew we would be just fine

You have the love and tenderness
I had been searching for

I found you

and I need not look anymore
They say that dreams come true
believe in dreams I do

When we are apart
I breath with such a heavy heart
when we are back in each others arms
nothing can part us
not even the strongest storms

YES, i dare say i love you.

Not because of the way you look
Or because of that sexy voice
Not because of the things you say
But because of whom you are

yes its you i love..i love everything about you

Because it's you

hahaha, how sweet. i'm just slacking ard. suddenly had the urge to write something like that. hahaha.
ILOVEYOU<33>

JULIAN

2006-03-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

JULIAN

I lie awake and dream of you,
lost and confused,
not knowing what to do.

I dream of your smile,
that seems to always brighten my day.
And those gorgeous eyes,
I could never let get away.

The day we first met,
was a beautiful Friday night.
I knew in my head,
it was love at first sight.

You're all the memories,
I can never forget.
With never a thought,
of having any regret.

Here lately, you seem to be,
all the wishes I make.
Loving you, is just a chance,
I will surely have to take.

But last night I cried.
I want nothing but you,
forever by my side.

Recently, you offered me a place,
forever in your heart.
That place, somehow seemed,
to have reached my deepest, inner part.

So, the next time you kiss me,
remember to kiss with lots of care.
Because I also have feelings,
for this perfect love we share.

<3LIMSHUYI
iloveyou BABY.

daddy daddy

2006-03-05T13:43:00.000+08:00

Daddy

there you go questioning me

asking for me to say i'm sorry

for the things i didn't even do

i hope that you will realise

that you have wronged me many times

and you don't even bother to say anything

true that the opaque glass

between us is thick

but i am still here praying

that to you i don't seem too greek

it's been days of yore,

since we chatted by the pool

until then,

i swear i will not take the first move.

another song i wrote when i was pissed with my dad.. hmm.. ho-hum

i know this aint a great piece but yepyep/
i'll do another one before camps starts! ((:

cheryl, ily
hahas >.<

CRUSHED

2006-02-18T13:42:00.000+08:00

CRUSHED

stuck in the shadows
lurking by the sidewalks
just to catch a glimpse of him
all her efforts
made to no avail
mindless waiting
brought nothing but broken fantasies

then one faithful day
they met in town
outside a shop
selling tucs and gowns

she's crushed and broken
left to go solo
making her way back
forlon of all hope

still prays for thaumaturgy
and though she's caught
in the dark
to face this reality alone
she'll strive
just to fix the last bits of jigsaw
of her soul

she found out
the missing piece
of the almost completed jigsaw
was..

her heart
it was lost

alas, she dropped
down all her pride
went up to him
with a strut then a stride

struggled with the heebie-jeebies
and asked of him
to return what could have been his
and yet, being dismissed
no longer belonged to him

she wept that night
thinking of memories that remained
still stuck in confusing
just drowned in exquisite pain.

whoah! i have no idea wad came over me. sudden urge to write sumthing.. hmms'

EVERstrongPUSHINGon//

ohh. i cant wait CT to be over then march camps will pour in!! and everyone will live happily ever after!! ahahahs

yepyep.

2006-01-31T21:32:00.000+08:00

2006-01-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

i saw him a while ago
lookin' into her eyes.
going with the flow
never heard my cries

whoo- tho that's short. it shows alot.
well, i just really hope you would be off hapier! ((:
cheers to ALL HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

i cant be a candle. -let me burn;melt;die to give light and warmth to OTHERS
i want to be a sun - providing light and warmth for OTHERS and MYSLEF.

*idea by KALAI!!!!

hey angel

2006-01-14T09:47:00.000+08:00

hey angel,
i've got lotsa things to tell say to you
i may seem strong
but its only skin deep
got the facts wrong
coz deep down i'm weak

great that i sound mature
but inside there still lives a kid
and i'm still an amatuer
doesn't matter what i just did

she called me on the phone
told me i didn't make it
in my heart i was feeling
what is this bullshit? (sry)

i slacked for less then two weeks
but slogged for her no less then two years
what she just did to me
cannot be fixed
as the deadline nears
i can't believe any of this.

yepyepyep. this was writen YTD! woohoo..
its actually a song that i wrote but i forgot the tune.. ho-hum

that's about it.

LEONARD!!! get well soon!

EVERstrong PUSHINGon//*

ohh ohh ohh

2006-01-09T18:17:00.000+08:00

SOMETHING from my notebook

The ceiling is falling
coz my sky's breaking down.
The birds aren't chirpping
coz your not around

The bridge of trust is crumbling
and my legs are trembling
The picture of us is fading
and i can no longer stand anything.

stare out the window
look at the reflection on the glass
waiting for the storm to
contiue raining i hope not.

The cars keep passing by
and right now
i don't know why
but i feel there's nth i can do...
without you.

hohoho. this is rather weird.. coz i'm writing it for a .. friend of mine, whaahhs. SO FUN!
its been more then a month since i blogged! and it feels good to be back!
hahas. sec 1 orientation is over!! and i coincidentaly gained a SEXY voice thanks to the shouting.

ohyah!! I SAID THE PLEDGE TODAY!
woo.. i feel good !!!
-grins-

alrights. enuff for today.. TMR, is HARI RAYA HAJI! so yay! [[:

tonight's agenda: chiong homework!

fragileness frm power

2005-12-02T15:49:00.000+08:00

FRAGILENESS caused by POWER

the bricks on the wall
so hard and strong
i wonder when they'll fall.

the wings of a humming bird
so fast and steady
i wonder when they'll weaken

the pages in a book
so utile and wise
i wonder if they'll tear

the words of a human
so powerful yet hurting (sometimes)
i wonder when they'll stop.

okay. i just felt something was wrong. and

i guess it is true that people's words
can be beautiful most times
when they praise and offer kudos.

but when one gets over-savvy
everything changes
from white to black
all the accolade and good words just somehow disappear.

evanishes

faded into another dimension
and the agony comes in.

the pain of one hearing the words
the pussiant in one's self dies off
and leaves but an empty, hollow shell.
which is what is diguised as a human body.

most people get over it soon.
but some, just a few,

don't.

alrights// i'll be in camp for the next few days,
starting frm tonight till like 6th. so i carnt blog.
hahas, bnb chapter 2 is coming SOON!

vacation

2005-11-27T09:19:00.000+08:00

ohkay..I"M GOING ON VACATION!! woo-hoo~*
THAILAND FOR 4 DAYS.
don't mind me not blogging !

=D CHEERS TO ALL!

crap

2005-11-26T13:06:00.000+08:00

phew- just came back from camp ytd.
caught a bad bad sore throat too! hahas.
okays. to friends out there!
really sorry for being so darn busy!

BEIHAN WEIRU XINJIE CARRYL JOVENE SOHMIN JAMIE
paiseh arhh!! =/

okays. this entry is SO crapy coz i'm feeling very crappy today. alrights gtg fer a meeting
ADIOS !! till next time. 1st dec?

2005-11-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

i'm staring out of the window again.
as the thunder followed the rain
but my view's blocked by the many trees.
like my vision, that's smeared with grease.

i want to count the stars tonight
but the twinkles just won't light.
the darkness from the cloak of leaves
runs on till even the happy, grieves

i just hope that the big guy up there could give us people down here
a new source of light.
a new source of hope.
a sense of belonging
in this place we call home.

to those meanies. you know yourself better.
WHAT COMES ARD GOES ARD.
let your conscience be your guide.
so if you aint got any.

GET A LIFE!!
=/

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

QUESTION MARKS

2005-11-03T21:55:00.000+08:00

I HOPE IT IS ALL A LIE (contradicting)

the day has come when i start to think
am i being too kind to everyone?
should there be limitations to one's enthusiasm?
maybe, just maybe, if i had less passion in doing those many things.
something better might actually result from it.
something better for EVERYONE..

the skies are way to dark and eclisped,
i can now barely see the sky being lit
by the memories of the yesterdays.
which used to bring such joy.

is what i'm doing wrong?
will there be a day, when i get enlightened
just like the day i got obfuscated.

or is it just a lie.
to eradicate my happiness?
by golly, i hope it is.

ENTITLEMENT

2005-11-03T10:32:00.000+08:00

musical song---

it's mine it's mine it's all mine
the riches of the poor
makes the rich, even richer.

it's mine it's mine it's all mine
from a penny of a beggar
to the loot of a thief.

it's mine it's mine it's all mine
i dispise those who don't stand up
for themselves.

we steal we cozen
from both the poor and
the rich

it's mine it's mine....
it's all MINE.,,
and they don't seem to care.

though we may defraud
and bilk them
that's the way we have been deemed
we still care for the people.
its for the best, the best
for ME!!

it's mine it's mine it's all mine.
the silken cloths
and emarald gems
all now belongs to me

and now i end this song.
with a token of appreciation
*kisses*
for all your greens with me.
SMIRKS

Joltkenstern (chief of thieves) speaking to his fellow acomplice.
storyline written by yours truly.

WRIST OF FATE

2005-11-02T03:00:00.000+08:00

WRIST OF FATE

let anything blunder, but let not the choices you make, turn into the regrets of life.
everytime i see the many faces passing by,
i'll ponder.

if the words spoken by others hurt us..
why do we still listen?
if the negative words we say to our minds, hurt us more.
why do we still jaw them?

if humans feel pain after doing something
why do they repeat, and feel more agonized?

do we not interpret the saying that goes
"once bitten twice shy?"

guess the world is but too contradicting
too complexed
for simple minds to ever understand.

BAHAI prayer- Manifestation of God
Thy unity is inscrutable, O my God, to all except them that have recognized Him Who is the Manifestation of Thy singleness and the Day-Spring of Thy oneness.

oh god, can you not see, we are suffering down here.
we are blind without you
our paths are not straight
we have no vision here.

you promised to give us straight paths
to live our lives in unity
more joy then pain.
so the hoops can can live along our journey together peacefully.

in the darkest times in our lives, where only pain and suffering could be seen and foretold
there will always be a small bright light shining.
oh great spirit let us be the twinkling star. (northstar)
and let the sun rays illuminate upon our land.

oui?!

2005-10-29T07:42:00.000+08:00

BEAUTY AND THE BEAST
CHAPTER ONE

Once upon a time, a selfish young prince refused to give an old beggar-woman shelter in his castle. But the old woman was really an enchantress in disguise. She turned the prince into a terrifying BEAST and cast a spell on everyone else in the castle. Then, giving the Beast a magic rose, she said, "This will bloom until your twenty-first year. If you learn to love another and earn that person's love in return before the last petal falls, the spell will be broken. If not, you will remain a beast forever."

IN a vilage near the castle, an eccentric inventor named Maurice lived with his beautiful daughter Belle. One of the young men in the village, Gaston, had decided that he would marry Belle. "After all," he told his friend Lefou, "she's the best-looking girl in town. And I deserve the best!"

But Belle refused him. She could never marry someone as arrogant and conceited as Gaston!

One day Maurice set off for a fair with his latest invention. As the night fell he lost his way and had to seek refuge in the Beast's castle.

Maurice was welcomed by some friendly enchanted objects, including Lumiere, and elegant candelabra, Cogswoth, a pompous clock, Mrs Potts, a cheery teapot, and her son, Chip a teacup.

But the Beast was furious when he discovered a stranger in his home, and he threw Maurice into the dungeon. When Maurice's horse returned home alone, Belle set off at once to search for her father.

"Oh, Papa," Belle cried when she found Maurice in the freezing dungeon, "we must get you out of here!" Sensing danger, Belle turned round. There was the Beast, towering over her.

to be continued...

OOMPH

2005-10-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

its weird to feel this way again
the same feeling
but in a different manner
still unsure
about my past
wondering if
it's another guise

if it were a praxis
why aint it too hard?
feel so lost
yet comforted by the warmth
by this new source
of cupid

getting caught
by the distant past
abolished the present now.
but time won't wait
won't cease or halt
the clock it moves faster
when i stop.

good riddance for some,
letting bygones be bygones.
Still a trace of pash
is ungraved on my soul
oh! where is my doctor who heals?

the amenity grows
and it struck me at noon,
like the lush green spread
on the field.

WHEE* silent time doesn't creek when it leaves.

PAINFUL BEGININGS

2005-10-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

JUST TO HELP

in the storm
my heart, it tears
like a time bomb
it creates fears

standing there
i pray to god,
that it'll be fair
and none will rot

the crimson leaves
all fallen down,
spring has ceased
not a single sound

a little cut
you could feel the pain
playing with the dart
isn't that a shame?

let the blood flow
may the heart blead,
at least you'll know
what's a bad deed

in the darkest shadow
crying for you,
i'll bend as low
as to using voodoo

to let you smile
and laugh again
right here i vow
no more pain/

__________
__________
__________
__________

ANYONE!! can anyone do one stanza?
my heads cracking!

SEPTEMBER ENDED!!

2005-10-06T17:31:00.000+08:00

SEPTEMBER ENDED!!
alright,, lemme cry in peace alrights. LOL
anyways, this whole few months have been wonderfuL!!
i like coached IAGsept2005! my first time ever coaching AND BOY!! did it ROCK a WHOLE LOT !!
ahahahs.

then came COACH TRAINING (1) the different module.
its like WAY COOL!
I LORVE AKLTG. hahas.
ANYWAYS, there're loads of prettaye people there there too! but

NOTE TO DOMDOM:
i wasn't amongst the prettaye PEOPLE hahahs!!

anyways, i'm like gonna be HECK busy for the rest of the months till JAN , x)) so LET'S GO TANNING!! there aint much time not everyone gets to tan like me HAHAH!! jkjk.

well, its exam period and i still wanna go to AKLTG everyday, its ADDICTIVE,

ANWYAYS> GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE OUT THERE IN THE

THANK YOU ANYWAS<>

LORVE YOU PEOPLE (everyone)

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

WOOHOO !!

2005-09-07T08:10:00.000+08:00

HEY !!!
itz been DONKEY YEARS since i last posted!! hahas. doi. i'm A LIL' LAZY okays,

firstly to all the ppl taking their O's or N's hahas.
GOOD LUCK !! x)) hahas. MUG hard then PLAY hard
HAHAHA

for those taking their STREAMING this year >> DUN PLAY TOO MUCH MAN !! ahahha =DD

ohwells, my holiday has been TIRING and not forgetting BORING even tho i'm fuly packed fer the WHOLE ENTIRE WEEK! HAHA/.
might not be blogging till monday night? LOL
coz i'm goin fer IAG A-coaching ~

hahas. i know some of my friends dun like me going to AKLTG at all, but please bear with it !!
hahahs. COZ i'm TOTALLY IN LORVE WITH IT !!

here's a poem fer SOMEone.

BEST FRIEND

best friend best friend
I this the very end?
i sulk, i groan
but moan i don't
for i don't wanna sound too mad.

best friend best friend
what's the difference b/w now and then?
i cry, i frown
coz i am down
but i don't want you to be sad.

Best friend best friend
songs and letters i can send
i write, i slog
but we're lost in a fog
now all i need is a BIG BIG MAP !

best friend best friend
my heart only you can mend,
it squels, it bleeds
but i won't plead.
for you will only think its crap.

THANKS =))

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

it's BEEN A LONG TIME

2005-08-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

phew~*
its been FOREVER since i updated this thingy x))
hahas. ohwells, LIFE is now FABULOUS! really. HAHA and art club is SO FUN!! even though i'm still on probabtion and stuffs. it really rawks! BIG TIME !hahahs

I LURVE ILP whees- itz so SUPER FUN! especially if a teenager goes for SK ilp. GRINS.

i'm so BORED nowadays though i rarely get to come home early, but i'm still BORED!!

eeks !! i JUST RECIEVED news that i can be an A COACH !! oohlalas* i'm finally joining the AKLTG ship.

2005-08-20T08:23:00.000+08:00

beef and chicken
eggs and seeds

all remind me of that dumb shit.
beef for grief
chicken for sickened

eggs for fates
AND
seeds for deeds

ohwells, i DO NOT toatlly belief in FATE. just you WATCH me!

like WHOAH!

2005-08-17T20:08:00.000+08:00

ohhwells. yesterday.
i've finally made the choice which i long should have made.
hahahs.

I've always been giving in to you. i've gave up half my life fer you. and yet, you make it seem like i've been too demanding. is being a friend that hard to do? is it that hard to give in sometimes. for me to count the number of times you've shunned me. it'll take more than grains of sand. for me too count the number of miserable times i've suffered takes more than waves of the ocean. i'm sick and tired of everything/.
yet, i'm still veh thankful fer everything that u've done fer me. and being the bestest friend anyone could have gotten. iknow its hard leading your life. i mean. everyone faces that. and i dun expect anything frm u other then our everlasting friendship
KISSKISS*

OOOHHHHHSHHA!! i'm fourteen years old alrdy!
thank you akltg and friends.
fer that SUPER NICE CAKES and celebration at AKLTG x))
I'M so touched by your actions.
that choice of yours really made me super HAPPY!
THANK YOU!

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

dum-dee-dum

2005-08-11T20:09:00.000+08:00

WAHAHHAS>>
MY BIRTHDAY IS SO COMING LIAOS !!
kissskiss* calendar!! hohoho.
anwyyas. today was so CRAZZY
we ALL went mad and collected as MANY FOC stuffings as possible
HAHAHA
at marina carnival thingy. x))

OHWELLS. it was fun. so WHO CARES?!
wanying,tanya,tiffany and me were lyk roaming the whole place. HAHA
SO FUN!!

I CARNT WAIT FER SAT and SUN!!

AKLTG:: coach trg 13th- 14th AUG 2oo5
tralalals*
shalalals*
lalaals*

hohoho. hurhurhur. hehehe. hahaha

2005-08-05T21:13:00.000+08:00

WHEESS~* let's just say i'm SUPER hyper today due to accessive.. erms... DRAWING !! hahahs.
arghhs. but still super BORING and TIRING!! coz we like spent
hours finishing up the backdrop! BUT everyone said it loooks GORGEOUS !! hahahas. ohyeahh!

I WENT TO VISIT CARRYL fer half an hour. bwhahas. HER ARM CAST IS SO PREETY ! has my BEAUTIFUL NAME on it ! x)) YAY !hahaahs.

ANNA THAI my grand daughter is EVIL!! haahhas. but she misses me so NVM ! i forgive u my young padawan ! ahhaahs. DIE U MUST !! lolls. jkjk// she's nice anyways, and PROMISED to wear a skirt to take picos with ME ! x)) kisskiss* (anna face ROTTED)

WHEES!
pulau ubin with A ACAD on wed 10thAUGUST
coach trg on sat+sun 14thAUGUST
my BIRTHDAY [winkzx*] sun 14th AUGUST
wahhaahs. SO MUCH FUN TO GO THRU !!

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

choco chip cookie !!!

2005-08-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

WHEES!!!! I LOVE CHOCO CHIP COOKIES !
especially if they're
FAMOUS AMOS COOKIES : no nut cholate
kisskiss*
ahahahahs.

okays. today was HORRIFYING !!! i was in pain right after recess. and continued to be in pain till like... NOW !! hurhur. LET'S BE EMOTIONAL !!

it was abt half past ten when i finally got onto the chair at the back of the classroom. i saw the fans twirling as it ripped the winds into shreds pushing all the cold emotions right to the back of the class, where my rock-hard chair stood. there i was, shivering in the bitter cold, hugging but myself, throughout the whole of two and half hours. i couldn't bear the pain but i knew i had to. the pain was alarming and felt as though a sharp piercing knife had been stabbed in various of parts of my stomach.

okays. un-EMO.
so i missed half of my math ct!! FREAKSOUTLOUD !!! argghs. i carnt believe it. HAHA
okays. that's the highlight .

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

allMIME allDRAMA

2005-07-29T21:31:00.000+08:00

whees~* no more cramps. no more pain. no more poison in my TUMMY !!!
hahahas. okok. today we had a PATHETIC and BORING tessellation workshop. EVERYONE was playing the computer and the instructor DIN CARE !! hahahs.<--- THE FUN PART !!

okays let's be emotional !! LALALA~*

no mood today. i feel HYPER after the COFFEE boost and EXHAUSTING DAY !!
wheees*
life is still the same boring and filled with lies that ppl say.
and regardless if it was supposed to be on purpose
out to hurt someone.
or " by ACCIDENT"
it WILL affect others. whether u like it or not.
LEAVE your lies. in a black box.
only open-ing it to reflect on one's pass doings.
LEARN and RELIVE.

I LOVE everyone out there!!<33
thanks fer EVERYTHING !!
especially to : coffee, peanut, red bean.
kisskiss*

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

my story

2005-07-22T20:43:00.000+08:00

i feel so broken. the words don't match.
i look up into the sky. and whoah. itz twirling. round and round. it wouldn't stop. then the blue skies turn grey, as i stand in the pale dim sunlight. the rays which hardly penetrated through the layers of clouds. then the ground starts to shake. i get scared. then i realised its myself quivering. my fingertips not spared. i'm stuck. i'm stuck. in a place i never wanna be at. the sound. the pierceing sound of the drilling along the road. i feel like the drill bit is right on my head. drilling deeper into the head. pass my skin. my hard skull, hits my brain. the pain. ever excruciating pain. and the pain won't go away. it stays and grows more piercing as the seconds past.

LIFE IS FRAGILE!!! ever unpredictable.

I LOVE EVERYONE OUT THERE.
in case itz the last time i'm gonna say this.

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

beautiful poem

2005-07-20T20:35:00.000+08:00

EDITED "allMIME"

[[all of a sudden
the colours all fade
my sunshine, itz all gone
it feels so dead

you turned my drama
into a mime
all black and white
it no longer shines.

i still do love u
but do u care
naahs. ur too busy.
u wun gif a damn

u ripped my heart out.
put it with urs
then stabbed mine.
like WHOAH!
did u expect me to be happy?

ohwells.
many a time
i've reached out to you
you pushed my hand away
like there's nothing to loose

i'm not out'a reach
u treat me like dirt
i'll still stand strong
but yah,i'm still hurt]]

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

uh-huhh. thnks to the ppl who really do care abt me.
those who speak.
those who listen.
those who read thru my words
THANK YOU!!!
*hugz*

`life's a MIME

2005-07-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

all of a sudden
the colours all fade
my sunshine, itz all gone
you turned my drama
into a mime
all black and white
i still do love u
but do u care
naahs. ur too busy.

u ripped my heart out.
put it with urs
then stabbed mine.
like WHOAH!
did u expect me to be happy?
ohwells.
many a time
i've reached out to you
you pushed my hand away
i'm not out'a reach
but still hurt yarhs.

today was veh tiring again. no one lied to me.
nut i dare say
RIGHT HERE
RIGHT NOW.
elton u are one true hypocrite.
ps: take it as a HUGE compliment.
u earned it.

I LOVE YOU ALL
includes: carryl [ peanut ] michelle [my other third ]

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

lahhdeeedahh~*

2005-07-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

today was another tiring day. seeing ppl lie thru their bare teeth. and hear the cracking of others hearts when they truth is uncovered. don't the people understand that it hurts. yes it hurts. so badly. i cant describe. but we're all victimised one way or another. sometimes people don't mean to lie. but hey everyone's got a choice. yesh. choices which leads to consequences. ever so confusing. yet soon the light shines in, and the truth all revealed.

I LOVE the council. tho sum of our attitude sucks.
a lil' disappointed. but we'll work it out somehow!!

ppl. dun understand that
someday somehow
the cheerful will haf her/his
sad days.
yes it happens.

I LOVE EVERYONE OUT THERE!! <33
includes AKLTG ppl, bpians, bppians, AEIQ ppl, IDC ppl, sentosa ppl, east coast ppl.

my family x))

kisskiss* SIMPLE PLAN rocks!!

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

ALLbutLIES````

2005-07-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

today was WHOAH!! the day was filled wid boring lessons which made me ever sleepy. and put me in a ever fruastrating mood. but i must be happy. i'm a happy gurl. yes i am. then came the afternn. tiff started the "bully-shuyi-contest". BEST big-bully wins. i'm not amused. actually i feel belittled. bbut i must not. coz i'm a strong gurl. yes i am.

ps: am i contradicting myself? nvm..

ALL LIES...
my life? a lie.
my happiness? a lie.
my self? a lie.
my joy? a lie.
my spirit? a lie.
my parents? a lie.
my studies? a lie.
my world? a lie.
my story? a lie

but...
my promises... aint no lie.

i dunno how to tell u the fact.
that its real
my love for you
well i guess u would shun me
and shove me aside
but i should not make assumptions.
guess notz.

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

this cant be happening.

2005-07-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

school was once again boring. except for the fact that we had that LAME LAME 45th anniversary practice. LETS WAVE OUR FLAGS!!! whees* not.. today's trg was quite slack. but i still feel tired. i feel like i'm all drained. nth left in me but the decomposing skeleton which

everytime.i see you there.
i feel like breaking down
coz we used to be so close
yet now we act like strangers
nomore talks on the phone
u promised me loads of stuff
but i'm not sure if u broke'em
but all i know is that ur slipping away.
leaving so fast
without a trace
except for that scar u left behind

i never once told u how much i care for u
not even till today
coz u gaf up on me
and i feel so lost
the pain i feel inside
u might never know
I LOVE YOU

eeeks. today is another freakday. like greenday but its FREAK not GREEN.
goshh. i think i suck a lil' ltoday.
i need to confide in sumwan!!

`where in the world are u !!?

EVERstrongLIVINGonn//*

what the freakk*

2005-07-11T17:54:00.000+08:00

arghhs// today had to buy court shoes. suckk. i dun lyk to wear stockings !! hahas. ohwells. today i din go for pe again. shruggs* TOMMY thought i wasn't well. hahas.

NOTEforYOU: JIANYI if ur seeing this. i'm really sry for not reply just now!!! i totally screwed my hp. eeeekks*

oh what the heckk*][
ohwells. life aint as bad as it seems.
even with all the
lies, problems, difficulties,
discouragement, daunt, rejection,
fabricated stories, and darkness overflowing.
there'll still be light ard the corner.
dun let anyone ruin ur life
especially yer'self.

my sun is dull without ur love
the darkness wun leave
till i re-live my life
the one u gaf up on
wonder where u went to
after fabrication
you lived a happy life?
i'm not too sure

EVERstrongPUSHINGonn//*

shruggs*

2005-07-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

hmms. TODAY was exhausting. went fer swimming test. so freakin' tiring. NO IDEA WHY!!! den i FLEW to akltg fer the empowering programme. totally rocks my socks man.

`notetoself: nxt time..dun trust guys too easily.

thinkingEMO''']]]
nothing seems to matter anymore
at least not to you
goshh the world aint the same
when your not around
tho ur always lying
and fabricating stories
i keep holding on
hoping sumwan would release the string
but nowan comes along
and those who do. wun last...

EVERstrongPUSHINGon//*